At present, I work for a conservative bank. I shouldn’t name it. Or I could…. but it might mean I have to censor myself, even if only in the slightest fashion. I can’t bear to edit myself in this way. In any way!
I had a previous contract with this company over a year ago and I had the pleasure of meeting up with some interesting people, some more memorable than others. One of these people, today, sent me a note in response to an update I wrote about how all was going. I feel somewhat indebted to this person because it is because of her that I landed this gig. Her glowing recommendation. Just thinking about what she might have said makes me want to laugh hysterically. It’s preposterous to me that anyone would give a glowing recommendation about me in regards to anything!
She wrote: ……
Very touching of you to share your updates with me. I am happy to hear that all the good is greatly outweighing the stressful stuff. Keep up with your positive disposition, it will help you to stay focused and happy.
Out with the old and in with the…. you know the saying. Glad to be an ear and to give you positive props as needed. Positivity is attracted to those who are willing to receive (and ready) to receive.
You are def one of the most complex individuals I have ever met. I accept you for your candor, the simultaneous vulnerabilities and strengths – which you have no fear in expressing, and your overabundance of energy. I have not met many persons in my life like yourself and I am happy to in any small way share with you the best parts of me. I pray your energy and zest of life will rub off on me. That’s what life is about; sharing oneself. …..
This note was unexpected and such a pleasure to receive. I obsess on the part stating the “simultaneous vulnerabilities and strengths”.
Yes, I am unafraid to express myself, whatever that self happens to be at any given time. Somehow, I never learned to censor that part of myself, and I am not quite sure if it’s because I wasn’t able to or I didn’t see a point to it. Why would anyone stifle a pure emotion? It’s confounding to me. Emotions are meant to be lived and felt. AND SAVOURED! AS THEY HAPPEN! And as far as sharing….I do believe a certain amount of finesse may be required, but not always.
I choose unadulterated raw distribution.
What a lovely plaudit! Don't be abashed by it. It's very touching as the writer recognises you possess a lot of qualities and abilites that she wishes she could develop for herself. I think she realises, that in your absence, she has missed you and that has somehow diminished her or made her aware of her limitations, whether self-imposed or not.
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